I guess this calls for some sort of celebration

I got my exam results. This is sort of a bi-annual thing for me. Every year I get nervous the day I get my results. I don't get nervous as much before the exams or during the exams, only before I get the results. And every year when I finally get my results it's like a huge lump of fat just got removed from my coronary artery. Not that I ever had any fat removed from any of my arteries but if I do, I imagine that it would feel like receiving news that you've just made it for another semester.

So after a few minutes of utter elation (really, I thought I failed 2 subjects, they turned out to be the highest scoring subjects and the subjects that I thought I would do really well in turned out to have the shittiest marks of the bunch), reality sets in. I guess I can never be too happy with myself. Compare to last year this year's results is fucking shit. My grades are going downhill with every new semester. For instance, first semester of 1st year: huge results, 2 HDs and 3 Ds; second semester: not so good, 4Ds and 1C; first semester of 2nd year: 3 Ds and 2 Cs. At this rate I'll get 2 Ds and 3 Cs next semester. I don't know why I want good results that bad. Ok, I do know why. I blame it on Asian parents putting too much emphasis on getting straight As in primary and secondary schools. I guess I should just concentrate on celebrating just making a D average again and managing to keep my scholarship for yet another semester. Seriously, this scholarship business is giving me too much pressure and anxiety.